Thank you to my sweet friend Kelly for the adorable bib! You inspired me to make my first post ALL ABOUT the new baby!!
With Miss Addie I documented every little itty bitty thing about my pregnancy, my anticipation, my joy, even lots of pictures of my growing belly. Well, this time around it’s a little different! I have a 2 year old to chase after and she totally keeps me hopping so I haven’t have the time to sit and blog about my baby to be, but I want to assure my little precious one, I am dreaming about you in every way I did with your sister. I love you already more than words can say and I can hardly wait to see your precious face! Your sister tends to take up the spotlight on this blog with all of her pictures, but this post, little one, is just for YOU. (This may be boring for everyone else to read, but it’s important to me to document this, so I am going to use this blog since it’s where everything else is!!)
I found out I was pregnant on Friday, April 22nd 2011. This was Good Friday, and boy was it a GOOD FRIDAY! Such a blessing to learn that we had another baby on the way. I was actually awaiting my monthly visitor that month and had gotten to the point of obsessing over when or if it would come, so I had previously decided I needed a diversion. Something to distract my attention from wondering if “this” would be “the” month. So, I planned an Easter Playdate for some of Addie’s friends. You may remember the post; we had 6 or 7 friends and their mommies over for crafts, an egg hunt, and yummy snacks. It turned out to be one of the happiest and most fun days Addie and I have had since I became her mom. We both love being with our friends and I am teaching her to love hosting parties the way I do! After a fun filled morning, we both took a nap in the afternoon and then went to run some errands. One of our errands was Target, but thankfully as we were heading there Brandon got off work a little early and met up with us in the Target parking lot. He took Addie home with him so that I could do my shopping at Target alone…what a treat! One of the things on my list was a pregnancy test (well I got a 5 pack in case I needed them in future months) but you see I had not allowed myself to buy any too early this time around for fear of disappointment. I promised myself no test until Saturday morning, so if I bought them on Friday afternoon I would be all set.
Well, as I was walking out of Target, that bathroom started to call my name. I resisted the urge, talking to myself about how it was late in the day, and most tests require testing in the morning, and also I had a large sonic drink, which would dilute the results. Well, my talking to myself did not work. I decided I would just do a test really quickly and see what happened. I was sure it would be negative, and I would never even admit to taking that test, then I would test “for real” in the morning.
Well, right there in the Target bathroom, all by myself, that digital test said PREGNANT within a matter of 5 seconds. I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT! I immediately prayed to God, thanking Him for this gift and then rushed home to tell my hubby. I had been on a strict diet for the the 6 weeks prior trying to lose 10 pounds before pregnancy and when I got home Brandon asked where I wanted to have dinner. I said, MEXICAN! And he asked me why I was wanting to “cheat”? I whipped that test out of my pocket and yelled, “WE HAVE SOMETHING TO CELEBRATE!!” He was shocked and so happy.
The very next week my doctor had me come in for a blood test to be sure the levels were increasing properly and they were! I was so happy, but also so cautiously optimistic! Because of the fact that I had had a miscarriage in January my nurses and dr were being extra cautious to make sure this pregnancy was strong. I was still scared, very scared because I had a lot of spotting in the first several weeks of my pregnancy. I had a few sonograms and everything continued to appear to be fine. My friend Emily said the other day, The more difficult the situation to our human eyes, the more glory to God for His provision and guidance as we learn to trust in Him.
I really feel that God used this time to tangibly teach me to walk each day in obedience to Him, even when I didn’t know where He was leading. God has done so many wonderful things for our family. I am learning to trust HIM fully. My new favorite song right now is by Third Day on their newest CD. The chorus says: “I trust in Jesus! My great deliverer, my strong defender, the Son of God. I trust in Jesus! Blessed redeemer, My Lord forever, the Holy One.” Here is a link to the song if you’d like to listen to this beauty.
We are almost 15 weeks and going strong. I hesitate to type this into this post, but for the last day and a half I have felt better than I have the entire time I have been pregnant. I have been very sick, almost unable to function times, but today is the first day in almost 4 months that I have not had to take an anti-nausea pill and for that I am trusting God! I am already growing, (Sorry no pictures this time…maybe later) and I feel the hope of someone growing inside of me with a promise of love that surpasses all when we meet him or her. We are due December 31st, which happens to be my most favorite time of the year. I am certain that this little precious miracle from God will make me love December even MORE! As for the nitty gritty of my pregnancy, it’s great. My only real craving at this point is fruit…all kinds, all day, I can eat an entire bag of grapes in one sitting. I have the same chicken aversion I had with Addie…can’t even look at the stuff, and don’t really want barbeque. The smell of cheeseits make me want to be sick…and they are Addie’s favorite snack. We have had two different doctors (one of which was a fetal medicine specialist) predict the gender, (they guessed the same) but we have another sonogram on Tuesday when we will hopefully find out the gender for sure! I will post once we know for sure! Addie is excited, confused, and not really sure why my belly is getting bigger. She says she’s having a baby brother half the time and a baby sister half the time. She will be 2 years and 9 months old when she becomes a sister! I can’t wait for that moment.
I am truly so thankful for this pregnancy and I continue to hurt and pray for my many friends who want a baby so badly and have not yet become pregnant. Your time will come! God knows the desires of your heart, of this I am sure.
Love and hugs,